Christ Episcopal Church

Hear the Word. Eat the Bread. Change the World.

June 19, 2016

The story from today’s Gospel reading is weird and disturbing. But after the events of the past week or two, I venture to say that it unsettles us not just because of its weirdness, but because there is something familiar in it. We may be 21st century educated sophisticates—but we still have to deal with demons.

Bigotry, violence, hatred, fear, addiction, greed, dishonesty—there are plenty to go around. If the events in Orlando—and all responses to it in the past week—have shown us anything, it’s that society has its demons, and they are Legion.

I have to confess to you that on Tuesday, when I saw the readings for today, I put my head down on my desk and thought, “I just can’t do this anymore.” I felt like Elijah under that broom tree, “Enough already. I can’t face any more of this, God. Take my life, this call to ordained ministry, away from me. Let me go hide in cave somewhere and not have to think about these things.”

But that is not how it works, of course. I can’t run away. We can’t run away. Elijah was running for his life because he had just killed 450 people, the prophets of Baal. He thought violence was the solution to the problem, and when he realized that violence begets violence, when Jezebel vowed to kill him before the day was through, he didn’t know what to do next. So he ran and ran until he couldn’t run anymore.

When he’s ready to give up, an angel shows up with water and a little cake. The angel tells him to eat and drink, because there’s still a long journey ahead and he needs to build up his strength.

Honestly, I’m not sure I’d find it comforting, if I were in the same position. But he eats and drinks and gets back on his feet and goes further into the desert, to Horeb, the mountain of God.

And that’s when things get really interesting.

I love that God and Elijah have the exact same conversation twice, but what happens in between changes the tone.

The first time God asks, “What are you doing here, Elijah?” I hear it as an accusation. “Why won’t you face the consequences of your bad decision, Elijah? Why are you running away when you should be back in Israel doing the work I gave you, Elijah? What are you hoping to find here that you couldn’t find back there, Elijah?”

And Elijah responds defensively. He insists that he was just doing what God wanted, eliminating the evil in the land by being destructive and violent, and he does not appreciate that now his own life is in danger. His words drip with resentment toward God. “Where are you when I need you?!”

So God shows up.

But not in the way Elijah expects.

The commentaries will tell you that the three non-manifestations—wind, earthquake, and fire—are meant to represent the nature gods worshiped by the communities around Israel, and that Yahweh, the God of Israel, chooses a sound of sheer silence to show that God’s power is something more than natural forces.

But today, in light of all that has happened this week, I think there is something more to it.

It tells us that God is not going to act in destructive violence to prove God’s power. There is a different way, a better way.

The sound of sheer silence.

And then the same question, asked again, but this time not in anger or condemnation. “What are you doing here, Elijah?”

And Elijah’s response, no longer defensive but filled with grief, sorrow, and repentance.

“I have been very zealous for the Lord, the God of hosts; for the Israelites have forsaken your covenant, thrown down your altars, and killed your prophets with the sword. I alone am left, and they are seeking my life, to take it away.”

And God tells him to go back. Go back, but changed. The lectionary leaves out what I consider one of the most important parts of this story: God tells him to go back, and he will find that he is not alone. There are others who are still faithful to God, others who have not given up, who have not given in and started worshiping idols.

I know it seems sometimes like the world is falling apart, like the demons are getting the upper hand and all we want to do is run away from it all. We give up on the world because we can’t seem to fix it. We feel like that community of the Gerasenes, who had this madman in their midst, and no matter what they did to try to contain him he still broke free and ran to the places of death. We give up hope of anything changing.

And then Jesus comes along, bringing healing and freedom and life to this one man.

But encounters with Jesus have consequences. Jesus is never content to stick with the status quo. Jesus knows that healing one man won’t be enough; the whole system needs to be turned on its head. So he sends the unclean spirit into that symbol of all uncleanness—a herd of pigs. The demons end up destroying themselves. The community is given a chance for a new way of being together.

But change is never that easy. The community is more afraid of radical change than it is of the demons, so they ask Jesus to go away.

Go away, Jesus. We don’t want you here. You make us uncomfortable. You unsettle us. You with your “love everyone” and “there is room for everyone in God’s kingdom”—we’re not ready to live that way.

Go away, Jesus.

Someone asked me this week if I thought the world was getting worse. And I said no, I don’t think it is. I think the kingdom of God is breaking into this world in unexpected places and ways, and what we are seeing are the desperate, violent attempts of the demons of the status quo to keep it from happening.

So we are left with a choice: to rage against God when it happens again, to despair and lose hope and throw our hands in the air and say, “This is how it’s going to be. We can’t do a thing about it. Go away Jesus.” Or we can finally, finally, listen to what God is saying in the silence, and try a different way. A way that says that more violence is not the answer, clinging to all those idols of false security is not the answer.  That running away, separating ourselves from one another is not the answer.

The answer is the healing, freeing love of Christ that shows us that each person, no matter how different, is a child of God. That doesn’t mean that we have to excuse the actions of a man so filled with demons that he took an assault rifle and mowed down over 100 people. But it does mean that we can’t look away, we can’t run away, we can’t pretend that he isn’t part of a larger system of brokenness that includes all of us.

We have to be willing to hear God ask that tough question, “What are you doing here?” and then listen for the sound of sheer silence while God waits for us to answer.


May God bless you with a restless discomfort
about easy answers, half-truths and superficial relationships,
so that you may seek truth boldly and love deep within your heart.

May God bless you with holy anger at injustice, oppression,
and exploitation of people, so that you may tirelessly work for
justice, freedom, and peace among all people.

May God bless you with the gift of tears to shed with those who suffer
from pain, rejection, starvation, or the loss of all that they cherish, so that you may
reach out your hand to comfort them and transform their pain into joy.

May God bless you with enough foolishness to believe that
you really CAN make a difference in this world, so that you are able,
with God’s grace, to do what others claim cannot be done.

And the blessing of God the Supreme Majesty and our Creator,
Jesus Christ the Incarnate Word who is our brother and Saviour,
and the Holy Spirit, our Advocate and Guide, be with you
and remain with you, this day and forevermore.


A four-fold Benedictine blessing

Sr. Ruth Marlene Fox, OSB


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